Staring…

Have you ever been so traumatized that the only comfort you find is staring, just staring?  Well, I do.  I stare into my computer, and sing my heart out, or just sit there thinking of dark moments in my life.  I breathe life into them because I get so lonely in my happiness, and I don’t know why.  I don’t like my darkness, but staring into it allows me to get lost in it, and get numb.  So there’s 2 reasons why I stare, and they’re both unsettling!